Guys, I have joy. and God has built a wall around it that nothing can penetrate.

Satan has had a hold on me for the last couple months and the last couple weeks I realized it. So, I prayed. and I broke from the hold. and he's pretty upset about that. lately all this rumors have been flying around my school and where I used to work. something about me getting fatter (I've actually lost a couple pounds so I don't know what's up with that), something about me being pregnant cause I'm fat (uhh..impossible?) and then some thing about me being fired from Chinese Tonite because I made out with a mexican. (ok, they're people, not just a breed of blue collar workers. and no, I quit, nobody fired me.)

so. there's all this crap, fueled by satan. and I've chosen to rest in the God-given joy. anytime I hear a new addition to the rumor, I'll wipe it off. it has no effect on me. because satan has no authority here.

also, I'm looking for a new church. because this one that I've grown up in just isn't growing me up anymore. it feels like they're putting on a show every week and I don't want to play along anymore. I'm looking into this hispanic church about 25 mins from me called Agua Viva.

pray that God will direct me to the church he wants me at. and pray that I'll be reminded each and every day of the promise of Joy.

and praise God! I got my first offering today for my FYM. a couple at my church gave me 200 dollars to mail into AIM. God will provide!