I miss you girls so much.  I really, really do.  I just wish I could just hug you all right now.  I'm looking at our pictures from the trip and bawling and listening to Regina Spektor and telling my friend (who I've told a million times, I'm sure it's getting a little old to him but whatever) how awesome you all are and all the things you all did for me when i was sick and how you all helped me and how much I love you all.  And, oh I dont know, I just miss you all so much and wish we could just alll be in a room together...any old empty room anywhere would work, I dont care, I just wish I could be with you all.  I hate that I can't put into words how I miss you all, so I can explain it to anyone here and I just wish I could tell you all whatever I feel at any point, but then whenever any of you call me I'm busy or my phone is being obnoxious or wahtever and I just feel so horrible always because I feel like you think I'm blowing you off and I'm not and I wish I could just drop everything and talk to you, but it honestly makes me really sad to talk to you all on the phone because it makes me just want to talk to you in person more and its just so bittersweet and I don't even know what to say because I don't know where to start and ahh i dont know...I just miss you all so much and I really hope I get to see you all again sometime...